“Then he isn’t safe?” said Lucy.
“Safe?” said Mr. Beaver; “don’t you hear what Mrs. Beaver tells you? Â Who said anything about safe? Â ‘Course he isn’t safe. Â But he’s good. Â He’s the King, I tell you.”
–The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe
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We’ve been reading The Chronicles of Narnia aloud for the past few weeks. Â First we read The Magicians Nephew, and we just finished The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe today. Â Wow. Â So timely. Â
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This thing is really happening. Â How did it get to be almost the end of August? This is really happening- and it’s happening soon. Â I wish I could put into words the way I feel, the wild knot of emotions that run through my heart and mind all day these days. Â
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As we’re cleaning out our two rooms here in our temporary home in preparation for our final garage sale, I find myself almost unable to wrap my brain around the fact of what needs to go. Â This is it. Â We aren’t storing anything but keepsakes. Â There’s no back-up-plan storage unit filled with our stuff “just in case”. Â It all has to go. Â All In. Â
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A Bible study for moms is starting up at church in September, and I’ll only be around for a couple of the sessions…then they’ll continue to meet and I’ll be gone.
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Our Home School co-op will continue, plans being made for the year and we won’t be there.
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At church camp this past weekend I was chatting with a missions friend about the massive intimidation of the Russian language and he said “Don’t worry.  Take your time.  Think long-term; you’ve got years to learn it!”  OMG.  I guess I hadn’t thought about it that way!  🙂  This isn’t a crash course in Russian, this is life. Â
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I’m so excited for what God has. Â I’ve never felt more alive or more filled with faith than I do right now. Â I’ve never known, like I know now that we are exactly, precisely in the palm of God’s hand. Â
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In some moments I don’t worry at all. Â In some moments I feel giddy about what this new life will bring, fairly bursting with optimism, peace, hope, and joy in the journey. Â In other moments I feel afraid, overwhelmed, and a little like I know we have absolutely no idea what we are getting ourselves into. Â Â
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So, you probably get the idea that the knot of emotions and thoughts is pretty impossible to untangle right now. Â But that’s okay! Â It’s messy, but it’s okay. Â All God is asking of us is to say yes to Him, and to trust in His goodness. Â
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Is this a safe move? Â Well, God didn’t call us to safety. Â He called us to yes. Â I have no doubt that safe or not, it will be good. Â Very good.Â
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Tonight, whatever you are facing, whatever ‘yes’ God is calling you to- trust in His goodness. Â All He is asking for is your yes. Â It might not feel safe. Â It might feel really uncomfortable. Â It might feel scary. Â You might not be able to predict the outcome. Â You might not be able to wrap your brain around the sacrifice, but I guarantee you also can’t wrap your brain around the joy. Â I know I can’t, but I’m already getting amazing glimpses! It is our joy, it is your joy to say yes to Him. Â Think about that day when all has been said and done and we stand before our King, our Love, our Friend. Â Will it matter if we were safe and comfy? Â Or will we take a deep breath after a life completely spent for Him and think “Whew! Â Now that was a wild ride!” Â
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Say Yes. Â Give it all. Â Step out. Â He is good. Â He is worth it.